For most of my life, I have wondered when I would become lovable, when I would feel truly safe and free and happy. A sort of cloud is beginning to lift and I am starting to see how these things have existed all along. They have always been here ready for me to accept them into my experience. But I didn't feel entitled to them so I refused them entry at the door. I am working on learning how to change the way I approach this experience (life) - so I may truly feel entitled to these things - to allow myself to receive them because I am really the only one who can.
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"...offer prayer to your uninvited guest. Only then will your house be blessed."
-Harry Manx

"Life is difficult. This is a great truth, one of the greatest truths. It is a great truth because once we truly see this truth, we transcend it. Once we truly know that life is difficult - once we truly understand and accept it - then life is no longer difficult. Because once it is accepted, the fact that life is difficult no longer matters."

Scott Peck - The Road Less Traveled

Thinking that the moment we are in is a mistake is a tragic diversion of our energy. Surrender and accept this moment, don't peer too far into the future. Otherwise when will you get the chance to listen to where your gut is leading you?

No need to rush through things...to hurry up and get over something, to change an unwanted behaviour or to "fix" something about ourselves. The very fact that you are uncomfortable with a behaviour means somehow you are somewhere on the path to changing it. You are probably further along the path than you realise. Go easy on yourself. Change is meaningless unless it is real. _______________________________________________________
"...look upward to the towering oak and know that it grew great and strong because it grew slowly and well." -Orin L. Crain