Again, its been a while. It has been a difficult while. I find myself at the beginning of a long journey and like some travellers when they first set out, the unknown length and nature of the journey daunts me. Yet at the same time, I find myself feeling that anything is possible. And 'anything' means more to me now that it ever has. Quite literally anything. Many things in my life seem to have died or be dying. Friendships and relationships that werent working, work that wasnt fulfilling. And the most scary death of all is the dealth of thing that was up until now, able to tolerate situations that didn't feel right. This leaves a big empty space and a confused Kate who must now learn a different way of living, of being led by deeply felt sense. Jeez.

In feeling into how to be in this time of transition into this new way of being led, I thought of these goals and wanted to share them here.

Personal: I will be aware about my intentions, and the power they have to be seeds of change. Change is happening all the time. A widespread phenomenon I notice amongst my friends, people in my community and even globally, is that we spend a lot of time talking about how important it is for us to make change happen. People seem almost in a panic about it, "hurry up we've got to change things, now!" I think we forget that everything in our universe is constantly in a state of change regardless of what we say, think or do. It dawned on me yesterday that the remarkable thing about being a conscious human being is that we have the power to intend. And intentions are powerful things. I will spend more time considering the life I want to create for myself and set clear intentions, knowing that these intentions have the power to change reality itself.

Community: I will share my ideas with my community, even if that feels scary. I have had many ideas about ways things in my community could be done differently, making it a better place, but I have held back out of fear. Fear that my ideas will be rejected, fear that I am the only one who sees things that way, or that I would be thought of as crazy. Knowing that you have support to go out on a limb can help you to let go of your fear andpush forward. But it strikes me that we don't always get offered this luxury. Sometimes the someone who has to 'go first' is you. Recently I started speaking up in my community about things that I felt were not right. I was afraid at first, that people would think I was a whiner, orthat I was wrong. I was even afraid that I would be ignored. But what actually happened when I spoke about what I saw, was that people thanked me for 'going first' saying they they hadn't been able to find the courage to say something, even though they had really wanted to. Pretty soon, there was a whole circle taking place of people who felt inspired by my bravery to speak up. Sometimes it is your turn to 'go first', I will stop shying away when it seems like my turn, for myself and for the good of my community.

Globally: I will remember that in order to make meaningful change globally,I have to be clear about my personal intentions.Realising how connected my personal intentions are to my actions and living with a deep sense that that my actions are to be ones that are brave and honest, I am starting to get a sense of my role in terms of global change.That old saying "Think globally, act locally" actually means something. In fact it is critical that we get really good at the second part before the global change we all seem to be intuiting can truly begin to take place. There is a trap that we can fall into that is called, 'now I must make you do things my way because I know better'. This trap has caused wars (often over religion). It creates an imaginary divide, an us and them. I know how to listen for what is true in my own life even if I dont always like whatI learn. It might be that I find that I find myself making decisions that seem inconvenient to me, leaving a familiar relationship or job, but my struggle is to stay true to what is true for me instead of trying to get others on board. To help the global changes that seem to want so badly to happen, I will focus on my own intuition letting that guide the intentions I set. I will allow my actions to inspire others, but not judge those who are doing their own work.